My better half hasn't come, and it's pushed me to the brink of suicide?

I'm 24, pre-law student. Soon i'll attend law school, and become a lawyer - sounds great right? My problem is that I don't care about the money a lawyer makes, or the title itself, all my life all I've ever wanted was a sweet simple nice girl to love. To this day I've still failed at it. It's taken a huge toll on my mental status over the years and I just want to die. I need someone like that in my life, but I'm alone. I don't know what to do anymore, I can only pretend to be ok, and struggle through it for so long before I crack. I need help